It finally feels like I let go of my breath and I didn’t even realise I was holding.
Getting married is to have finally moved to the next stage of my life, ‘marriage being the beginning’, my blessing my guard, my shield my equal and my protection.
Now that months have gone by I see yet again in my state of ‘sabr’ I again am holding my breath to see, what you will do for me.
But the guilt isn’t mine and I’m not wearing it anymore, that’s your dirty cover use it and abuse it however you wish, your intelligence amazes me, shame about the stupidity that overpowers it.
You stood by and watched as little pieces of me were slowly chipped away.
You also stood by me and took the perfect picture.
You were with me when you stole my sacred gift. Then used it and made me loose every sense of reality.
My helplessness was unappealing to both you and me. I doubt that I will ever be able to make you truly feel what you did to me.
Now that I walk without you when I breathe I do it for me and work twice as hard to make it flow. . I have my reservations where it will take me and will I still remain me. I smile at the challenge because I was truth and you were not, you lied to me with every ounce of your body.
My strength and guidance comes from the fact that I stayed within my faith to be the dutiful wife to you, till this very day I wished only good things for you.
And this right of speech will not be lost from my mouth again. I will not be silenced or ashamed, the biggest blessing that you lost was the right to stand next to me to complete me and be my equal my other half.
My du’aas will be answered whether in this life or the next. In sha Allah.
With your mouth your sweet lies.
With your eyes the lost hope.
With your hands the fake embrace.
And with your intimate heart the sacred cut.
For all the above I pray your forgiven.
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